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Gurgaon, Haryana, India
Dont claim to be a great writer but love to pen down those random thoughts in my head,share what I feel,however irreverant or unconventional they may be.Here's my take on things which matter to me,delight me,comfort me and give wings to my fancy, be it fashion,living,music,movies,books,family or Love! Peace to all...and restlessness to those who dare to think differently!A science graduate, a fashion-post-graduate,a wife, a mom but above all a lover of all things beautiful and sensitive. Romance, wine and music..I can live solely on these.

Monday, February 18, 2008


As I read the very frequent articles in newspapers and glossy magazines on love/ attraction, I realise how the great "myth" about love is getting demystified!!!

So, that flush of new-found love is nothing but a feeling induced by chemicals..dopamine and some others....which are actually similar to what you experience on comsuming cocaine! There we were thinking how special this amazingly heady feeling is...and now we know, it is what your brain is producing not your heart( but at least we know that love does "intoxicate" you..."pehla nasha"..so true)! If this was not all ...scientists and researchers have proven that this feeling lasts for a maximum of about 18 months. Hmmm.....well, you can't be "high" all your life.

We all remember and cherish the first stirrings of romance we felt...the days spent in a haze of day-dreams after meeting someone....when we floated through the boring every-day routine, waiting for evening to begin....when just sitting next to that "someone",brought a rush of unexpected desire. Yes..you do remember and so do I.

As this "high" settles in a comfort zone...we look at other avenues to rejuvenate us...a baby, a new city, a house bought together, vacations...!
But I do wonder at times...so is that feeling of being intoxicated in love never to be experienced again? Why cant we go through "falling in love" all over again with the same person?
Oh yes...may be I am "addicted" to the first flush of love..maybe that is what makes my heart flutter at times when i suddenly see chandru...like the other day at kailash kher's concert, I turned to say something to chandru and was struck by how attractive he is..this man I fell in love with 9 years ago!! I longed once more to just hold his hand in mine while we listened to kailash belt out "Ishq ka jaadu sar chadh kar bole..teri diwani".

Saturday, February 02, 2008


I created this blog page sometime back...and since then have written in fits and starts....as anyone can see , I am adding a page after almost a year!!
I have my reasons for not writing...though there was much I itched to write about...but the dileama was either I could write honestly on topics I felt deeply about or superficially write about things which are easy to comment upon. Are you wondering why this dilema at all? Well, because this is a public forum and accessible to almost all I know....so in the process of writing honestly , I was in danger of revealing too much or hurting egos which bruise oh-so-easily. So then the answer was simple...I chose not to write, well why should I bother to write on things which are not so relevant to me or I do not really care about.

I had another reason, as well...just coming to that. Net has opened a wide world, accessible at the touch of a key-pad, to people all around the globe.... and blogging is the latest fad!! At the risk of sounding arrogant or pompous, I would say that I try to steer clear of things which have caught the commom fancy. Everyone from film actor to a college girl is blogging....some are , of course, experts on thing they write about and some are pretending to be one...writing gravely( and shoddily) on things they dont know about. Some are masquerading as poets and thinkers,using bulky and beautiful words...coming up with something which is mediocre at best!! Many use their blogs to air their views on people they hardly understand....with oblique hints and references...well, their blog is their own personal (but very public!!) tool to attack people.

All this ,kind of ,killed my spirit to write...not that I can write better than most...I have no such illusions...

Do not get me wrong, I understand that blogging is an effective tool for people who are creative and is an easy medium to express thought, connect with like-minded people.
And this thought, finally, got me back to this page. I will not make it my public diary....but when the mind gets full of things it wants to shout out, then I will take a deep breath and sit with my computer....hoping to find words which will convey those thought.
Till then.....adieu!